losing one thing after another.

today was horrid.got bad news from my mum the moment i got outta bed this morning.beat that!can you imagine hearing something you never thought you'd hear the first thing in the morning?well,today was the student councilor investigure[sp??]didnt feel like dancing at all.but couldnt tell them dat i din wanna dance.it'll be pure mean la.forced myself to smile all the way today.but there were times i jus couldnt.

well.yeah.things get taken away so quickly.one after another.sometimes right off,under ur nose.things tat are so close to you,get taken away.not one,but TWO.sigh.i think the world is out to kill me one day.i bet its gonna push me to my mother fucking limits.waiting till i break,that's wat everyone is waiting for me to do.[iknowimnottheonlyone]sigh.

well i don even know wat to do anymore.i don even know how to handle myself.i jus wanna get over each day n hope my dreams take me to a happier place.or bring me there temporarily so tat im strong enough to face another day.i don know when this is gonna end.never probably.sigh.

i jus wanna cry myself to slp n hope everything's okay the nxt day.i know im dreaming,its silly.i jus want everything to be the way it shld be.to at least have something i can hold onto.or rather someone to love me.well,tats not gonna happen.

its hard not to feel alone.i guess many ppl feel that way.sad case.I JUS WANT EVERYTHING TO GO AWAY!i want all my problems to GET LOST!!!!!but i guess everyone wants tat.its impossible.that's saddening to type.impossilble is such a huge word.well its the only one that measures up to the situation.nth will ever be the same i guess.i WISH...i jus WISH!

ohhwells. ive got nth more to say.most of all,i hope no one does anything outta pity.i don wanna sound like i don appreciate the concern,its jus that i don want things to come outta sympathy alrite? :] well i guess this is it.wish me luck.rarr!bye

"i wish EVERYTHING would be ALRITE.pls take me away n love me agn."
I MISS MT MUMMY PLEASE!!! *sobs.


i'll never ask for anything else,
if the world gave me just yo[u].
i wouldn't bother to ask for anything more,
if i had just another moment with you.
at least it'd be smth i'd love to rmb.
-cried a river